Earlier this month, I took a little staycation (during which I did my "Narcolepsy: Not Alone" photo)...didn't get all the things that I wanted done, and watched even less TV than I do normally. During this time, I didn't check my 'work' email accounts (including the gmail account that I had associated with my work smartphone, which I haven't had one for a long time since I opted to downgrade to a basic prepaid phone on my own dime.)
When I returned to work on August 12 and started catching up on my email, I found a bunch of emails from my cousin June. My grandfather likely passed away due to sudden cardiac arrest Friday night (August 9th, 2013). He wasn't discovered until Saturday morning, slumped over in his walker, when my grandparent's helper showed up. He was 93 (June 12).
Guess there were other emails to my other gmail account (from my parents), but that account has become overrun by emails from places I've shopped and many discussion groups. Need to make more filters to clean things up.
Anyways, I was in shock. I was quite close to him, he's in many of my early childhood memories. Perhaps because he was the other tall person, we shared some common interests (namely photography and home stereo) growing up and he facilitated my growing interests and lead me in how passionate I am in those areas. Which has led me to being equally so in many of the other areas that I've gotten into both personally and professionally. I'll probably never have the a home stereo system like the system that drew my attention in Taiwan, Photography continues to be a part of my life despite it becoming harder and harder to do. It was how my tremor was making it difficult to enjoy my Photography hobby that had led to the diagnosis of Essential Tremor, not that it was making it hard to do precise mouse clicks at work. I've never really been a big GUI person....and as my Tremor progresses, its not likely to change....
While I hadn't seen him since 2010 when I visited him for his 90th birthday, which as it happened was also during an email move at work. In my mind there was that there ought to be a family reunion in 2015 for my grandparents 75th wedding anniversary (and 95th birthday), where we haven't had much of a family reunion since my aunt Clara had passed (in 2004). There was also the thought of a reunion in 2020 for his 100th birthday.
That makes 2000 our last family reunion (and my first cruise), which was for my grandparents' 60th wedding anniversary and my grandfather's 80th. We did try to have a reunion in 2005 (my third, and final , cruise)...but no Leo, Cathy or Charissa...and my grandparents eventually backed out. They haven't been into air travel for some time, and we weren't able to find a cruise around Los Angeles. We settled on one started/ended in San Diego with arranged car service to transport them to and from the port. Still it was a good cruise, even though I was flying back to so that I could be laid off from my previous job on Christmas Eve.
Then some guilt crept in as I then became angry that I didn't know about his death sooner. Along with trying to figure out bereavement leave policies and whether I could get an airplane ticket, etc. to attend his funeral on August 20th. I managed to mostly keep it together and push through the rest of the day at work. When I finally got home, I was starving and much sadness came in bursts.
Eventually, I call my parents to find out what travel plans they had to give me an idea of what plans I should make for my trip. And, then it was to see about finding an airplane ticket....I had been combing sites earlier looking for tickets for other upcoming trips, like NN Conference in October and Chicago Tardis in November. Which I probably should pull the trigger on purchasing soon, but there's a staging of when I purchase such things to manage the hit on my credit cards....
After some playing around, I find a combination of flying in the morning of August 20th and flying back on the 21st for $440...with ATL being around $470 and ORD being around $415. But, its only for a specific flight out of MHK and a specific flight back to MHK. Moving to either side, practically doubles it.
Also, I had to leave the booking with no seats selected, because the only seats it says are available are preferred or extra room seats, so two levels of extra charges. So, I left it to see what it would do when it tickets, which isn't until the next morning. It has seat assignments for MHK to DFW and DFW to MHK, but neither of the LAX flights have seats.
Should probably get to buying ATL ticket soon (now), though was considering buying ORD first given the notes of only a few seats left at the lowest price.
Well, last night was different...I turned down the humidifier to prevent rain-out, it didn't feel as comfortable as it was the night before. I got a note that my cover has shipped, only its going to the wrong address. It hate it when companies ask for shipping address, but then ignore it and send items to your billing address. Now I have to wait for it to arrive, and then wait for a Saturday when I can make it down to the UPS Store. They did apparently upgrade the shipment to go by priority mail, which just makes it more annoying.
During the night, I had a dream....don't recall the specifics, except that I could tell I was having one....so I woke up, and found that I had rolled over and knocked my mask part way off...and had opened my mouth.
What air was getting up my nose, was coming out of my mouth...
So, I got up and made a trip to the bathroom and the kitchen....and then back to sleep.
Then, I woke up a second time...it was close to before my alarm... So, I decided to just stay up....rather than make a trip to the bathroom, put mask back on and try to get some shuteye during the 45 minutes that was left before the alarm.
Taking the mask off, there was that strange smell and my nose was feeling sore. Wonder if I'm just smelling the part that was being covered by the mask....
Wonder if I'll look strange if I bought Lansinoh (I normally never go to that section of the grocery store, but I was there yesterday when I was looking for baby shampoo). But, people swear by it for mask soreness...and it doesn't contain any additives (so no worries about stuff in it reacting with the mask silicon seals.)
Meanwhile, I'm not sure which way I'll go. Keep humidifier low or risk drowning....
Woohoo, UPS was here....
Last night was my first night with the heated humidifier....it was kind of mixed night.
It went on so well, that I wasn't sure it was even working. Other than that I would've had difficulty breathing with the CPAP off, it certainly didn't feel like it was on the same way before the humidifier. Guess the lack of cold dry against the inside of my nose confused me.
So, I spent the first part of the night feeling for the air flow, and then wondering if I was feeling the right air flow. Didn't need ramp (at this stage). However, there was more noise from things last night...I guess its just the added sound of the air going through the humidifier now. Though it might also be that I put the machine in a different spot, due to its added size.
But, this time I was up twice during the night.....rolling over and nearly drowning is kind of a problem. I had ordered a HoseBuddy, to help with getting tangled up in the hose during the night. Maybe I shouldn't have gotten rid of the headboard for my bed a couple of months ago.... I think I debated getting a hose cover, trying to pad my order to be over $99....which I do have one coming. But, it probably won't arrive until after this weekend, so it would mean I have to wait until the 10th to get it from the UPS Store.
Going back to sleep after the near drowning was harder....did feel the need to use ramp once.
Then when I woke up there was a 'new' smell inside my nose. Though later when I was cleaning things, I noticed a lingering smell....guess its a 'feature' of the dish soap I'm using. Guess I'll add baby shampoo or something to my (mental) shopping list. Hopefully I'll remember while grocery shopping hungry....
The fit was a little off, because I was using the medium nasal pillow...it fit okay when I tried it at the Home Medical place, but I guess laying down and moving about in bed...it doesn't fit as well. Guess the large nasal pillow is what I'll stick with using for now.
I recalled a dream from last night....the annoying kind. I dreamed that I had woken up because my nose had water in it, and that I had pulled off the mask and turned off the CPAP and....then I woke up to find that I needed to actually do what I had just dreamed.